I am Jack's favored memories..

Every once in awhile, I find something that reminds me of my cousin. The other day, it was a pog. Not the regular pog, but the master pog [I don't remember the exact name of it] that you used to flip the other pogs. I remembered him teaching me the game of pogs. Me with my X-men pogs, I don't remember his pogs because I could never beat him at it. I remember how happy I was when my cousin came to visit. We'd play pogs, go putt-putt golfing, then go to Old Country Buffet or get Papa Murphy's to drink with Root Beer. I miss my cousin. I have a mini-shrine in The POD for him. I keep all of these keepsakes I find in a box in my closet. One day I hope to visit his grave and leave all of our momentos there for him to remember me. In 81 days I will be the same age he was when he died 6 years ago.. <3 I love you Kissopher.

I went for a walk with The Mother tonight. We took Katelyn Fiona. I talked to my mom about my English class. Attempting for an incomplete so I don't f-bomb my GPA.. so I can retake it this summer. And just pretend like I graduated this quarter to the rest of my family... heh.

"How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me. It's like a book elegantly bound but, in a language that you can't read. You've gotta spend some time, Love, you've gotta spend some time with me. I know that you'll find, Love, I will possess your heart. " SmoothieBoy.. that goes out to you.. Though you were the one that introduced me to the song. Maybe one day the stars will align and we will be together as more than friends without it being awkward like L-Word and WolfBoy. For this I wish the most. <3 I will possess your heart, and you... you will possess mine.

Mmmm.. *yawn* Time for beddie-bye.




Melodies in my mind::
[1] ..Cath... by Death Cab for Cutie..
[2] ..Grenade Jumper by Fall Out Boy..
[3] ..Soul Meets Body by Death Cab for Cutie..
[4] ..Here in Your Arms by Hellogoodbye..
[5] ..Twin Cinema by The New Pornographers..
[6] ..Your New Twin Sized Bed by Death Cab for Cutie..
[7] ..Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day..
[8] ..Hate (I Really Don't Like You) by Plain White T's..
[9] ..American Idiot by Green Day..
[10] ..I Will Possess Your Heart by Death Cab for Cutie..
[11] ..Build God, Then We'll Talk by Panic! At the Disco..
[12] ..I Will Possess Your Heart by Death Cab for Cutie..
[13] ..