It is the eve of Kennedy's first birthday bash. I'm up late cleaning, baking cupcakes, and getting ready for tomorrow. While I'm excited, I can't help but to think about how spoiled Kennedy will be. He won't be spoiled in a bad way, but I know I will do anything in my power to make his life as happy as possible. This vacation has brought up thoughts and fears of one day when Kennedy and I will be on our own. And I will be left to be his mother and his father. I have a hard enough time being his mother with help from MY mother, I can't imagine what it will be like to be on our own. Yet part of me longs for it every day..